Entry #2

Yesterday was good. After church gma&gpa took me out to KFC. I guess my eyes were too big for my stomach because I didn't end up eating half of it. After that I began my ride to the small redneck town of Evart. It was good. Talked to a few friends on the phone, but then decided that was a bad idea because I kept going off the road. Figure that.

I've been thinking alot, and I know exactly what I want to do in life, but I have no idea how to get from point A to point B. Life is just confusing. What i'd really like to do is start school at Cornerstone this year, and go from there. But for some reason I can't leave SAU behind. *Plus I really want to go to Egypt lol*

I still carry around a lot of hurt with me. I need to just forgive the person(s) involved... But it's hard for me to let things of that magnitude go. I want to get even. I want to make them hurt like they made me hurt. And i'm not talking about the people you would expect. I know whom you would expect me to be talking about, and that is all forgiven. Yes it hurts still, but I choose to be a friend rather than an enemy.

Ya know what I really want? Someone who will just be there. Someone who will hold me when I hurt. Someone who will talk to me at any time of the day about anything and not be bored. Someone who believes in God and all the bible has to say. Someone who is not a hypocrit. Someone who will help me grow and not bring me down. Someone who will remember my birthday. Someone who will do little things for me to show me they care. Thats all I reall want.